I am new to this community and sort of see myself as a really un-open,poorly controlled person with SOME psychic ability. Allow me to explain as I'd REALLY LIKE YOUR HELPAND GUIDANCE.
-As a young child, especially by the time I reached school age, I suddenly became very introverted. Shied away from crowds and people. I always felt overstimulated and overly sensitive to things that other people didn't seem to get very upset about
- By the time I was 10, I began to experience huge mood swings. It became more and more difficult to carry on with regular "life" stuff like school and by the time I was 21, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder
- In my teenage years, I was quite taken with the paranormal and used a Ouija board to contact spirit. To my amazement it actually worked...only I unleashed something dark and malevolent. This horrible experience seemed to open me up however. I began to have strange spiritual dreams. Its not often but usually once or twice a year I have a premonition and whether its significant or insignificant and whether its months or years down the line, they tend to always come true! I've also experienced one waking moment of 3rd eye vision (clairvoyance) and one moment where I saw, heard, and even felt my recently deceased dog.
- What brings me here is that about 5 years ago, I had a premonition of my wedding day and I KNEW certain things about my supposed future husband. A few days ago, I believe that I may have encountered him for the first time. And when that happened, something STRANGE happened to me that I never experienced before. When I met him, I started laughing. I was just highly amused that I knew who he'd be to me but he had no idea. I tried to conceal my laughter but failed horribly. As I tried to control my laughter, I stared at the floor. Then all of a sudden, I felt a strange fluttering sensation in my chest and I swear, I just KNEW that this fluttering feeling which felt like amusement was NOT my own amusement but HIS. I've read about psychic empathy for years but never felt that I experienced someone else's emotions before. I've always been highly empathetic (ya know, in thenormal sense of the word) and very sensitive to people that can't seem to help themselves and animals and when I read about psychic empathy, I felt like I had the potential to excel at that but untilthe otherday, I never experienced it.Or if I had, then I didn't know it.
Basically I'dlike to know how to develop/control whatever level of intuition that I may have so that I can stop being so emotionally crippled and become more productive in life. PLEASE HELP!